A lot of people say it can be tough to keep your faith in this world. That hasn’t been my problem. I feel like once you have a really strong relationship with God, a worldly temptation is more like an annoying gnat than a beast. You just have to stay in His word everyday. It’s like an athlete, you can’t only practice right before a big game; you have to keep yourself prepared if you want to succeed. Same thing as a person. You can’t only pray or read the Bible when you need something. It’s a lifestyle. It’s an everyday thing.
I’ve certainly gone through times where I’ve been mad at God and confused. But I’ve never doubted that He was there. I’ve never doubted that He didn’t know what was best for me or love me. I’m just hardheaded. My trouble has always been with patience.
When I want something, I want it RIGHT THEN. Even when I know I’m not ready for it. Like literally, I have a squirrel brain and don’t think things through sometimes. I got it from my momma. Why she couldn’t have given me a booty instead, idk. Anyway, like I could decide one day that bull riding was my thing. And the next day, I’d be determined to jump on Big Bocephus and go 8 seconds. It’s silly, and I know I’m setting myself up for failure but that’s just the way my mind works. My desire pushes away my common sense. Sometimes, that can be a good thing because it makes you fearless. And I believe in that case, God will allow it. But most of the time, I’m just being impatient when God is saying, “just hang on a minute.” I mean, what would happen if I prayed to God right after my bull riding epiphany to let me win on Big Bocephus? He would laugh. Legit. And I would get mad because he didn’t do what I wanted. See how silly? I’m trying to get better about that.
I know God is going to open doors if I follow His will, and ultimately that is exactly what I want – His will. But I’ve got to stop freaking out in the hallway and just be at peace. Study. Praise Him. Have patience.
Romans 12:12 – Rejoicing in hope; patient in tribulation; continuing instant in prayer;
Romans 8:25 – But if we hope for that we see not, [then] do we with patience wait for [it].
Galatians 6:9 – And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.
Jeremiah 29:11 – For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
Philippians 4:6 – Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.
Ecclesiastes 7:9 – Be not hasty in thy spirit to be angry: for anger resteth in the bosom of fools.
Ephesians 4:2 – With all lowliness and meekness, with longsuffering, forbearing one another in love;
1 Corinthians 13:4 – Charity suffereth long, [and] is kind; charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up,
Romans 5:4 – And patience, experience; and experience, hope:
James 1:19 – Wherefore, my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath:
Proverbs 15:18 – A wrathful man stirreth up strife: but [he that is] slow to anger appeaseth strife.
Isaiah 40:31 – But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew [their] strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; [and] they shall walk, and not faint.